The big C

I've been trying to find the words to describe how I feel all week. But really it boils down to this: cancer sucks. It doesn't care how old you are, how rich you are, male or female, single or married, Christian or unbeliever. I've been amazed this week and saddened this week. 26 year old male with testicular cancer that has spread throughout his entire body. He has no clue. 30ish year old male starting chemo soon for colon cancer. My aunt receiving the news that she has malignant melanoma.

But then God reminded me that He knows what He's doing and He uses medicine and doctors to heal every day. The reminder came in the form of two patients. Both with aortic valve replacements. That may not sound impressive to you. While I was standing there listening to the clicking of the valve I was overcome with the sense of God's presence. God gave the doctor the knowledge to invent this valve replacement and the ability to place this in a human's heart. I was amazed and encouraged. He knows what He is doing. He has plans. Big plans.

Posting

I find myself experiencing things in my every day life and then thinking,"Oh, I should blog about this." Then I get home and forget what I wanted to say. I will tell you I had a 19 year old patient last week with a lot of fluid around her heart. She was obviously sick and needed help. So we drained the fluid off and she immediately felt tons better. We moved her back to her ER stretcher and she whipped out her cell phone and started texting. Seriously? It made me laugh and shake my head at the same time.

Health

So I know not many people read this so I feel safe venting here. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed with my health issues. I have bad days and good days. Some days I feel like it's not a problem and no big deal. Other days I throw myself a pity party and ask, "Why me?" I know there are much larger health issues that people deal with. I know that. Sometimes I just want someone to feel sorry for me. Ugh. I don't like admitting that. But that's the truth. So I'm working on a positive outlook and working everyday to fight the pity party.

In other news, my father-in-law had his hip replaced this past week and it went well. So I will get to see my husband tonight for the first time since Tuesday. It's funny. We were long-distance our entire dating "career." But now we're married and it feels so weird to not have him here. I did get to spend some much needed time with my friend Amy though. Mrs. Cone and Mrs. Konemann together again. :o)

I'm supposed to be working on bills and cleaning the apartment for Corey's arrival. Instead I'm writing to you and picking out a new pair of running shoes for work. Oh yeah, I have a birthday coming up in two weeks. Any ideas of what I can ask for? Corey and my parents always want to know what I want...

A few wedding candids!

Rehersal dinner with all the college roommates together again!








Amanda! And lip gloss. Gotta have the lip gloss.








We call this one "Runaway Bride."











The only few bites of food we got. They were good bites too!








Lunch before the wedding required a bib!








Cousin Ally, me and Lizzie, my sister and Maid of Honor.

Wedding!

I'm married! I'll post more pictures soon. Wedding and honeymoon pictures. You can check out www.cedarway.org for all the official wedding pictures! Look on the right hand side of the page for the Corey and India link.

Wedding Prep

So I'm really enjoying this week. I love how excited everyone is for us and it makes me even more excited than I already am! I'm excited to see far away friends and then to start my marriage with Corey. We have lots of adventures planned and I know there will be adventures we don't plan for. I know there will be ups and downs and days that are super tough. I've seen marriages fail but more importantly than that I've seen many marriages succeed. Corey and I are blessed to have so many examples of healthy marriages around us. Very blessed. I'm excited to see what adventures God has in store for us and our marriage.

Showers

After all the awesome wedding gifts Corey and I have been getting I can't wait to move and set up our "house!" We had a shower this past Saturday and then one on Sunday. Bed Bath and Beyond in Paducah is throwing Corey a shower this weekend. Yay! I can't believe it's almost here. I was talking to some friends at church on Sunday. They were saying how Corey and I should try to join their Community Group. They just lost a couple and we could step into their spot. That would be awesome! I'm really just rambling but wanted to give an update since it's been almost a month. I've really slacked off on my picture taking here lately. The next update you get will probably be wedding pictures!